amazing things happen when you least expect it

So what is it that makes us feel something for someone we've only met for a short time? What is it that when it happens some of us feel happy about it and for other's it's a scary situation? Honestly i couldn't tell you but in my opinion i think it's something more out of our control no matter how hard and how many times we tell ourselves "i won't let it happen" or "i'm just looking to make a few new friends" it just happens and it happens for a reason but what reason is that? Is it something that is deep in our subconscience that even though your not tryin to it still always happens or is it something that is controlled by a higher being that is mapping everything out for us? who knows, will we ever know what's behind something like this? hard to say but who ever or what ever it is all i can and will say is THANK YOU.

is on brain overload

been a hell of the past few weeks at school and work, don't know what day is what really anymore. So i took the day off today cause i really needed it bad, will probably get in trouble at work tomorrow but oh well when aren't i in trouble at that damn place. Can't wait to have my first two microsoft certification's so i can quit that place and maybe be able to enjoy the weekends again and actually see family and friends, might even help with the depression i've been having lately, for those of you that actually talked to me yeah i hide it well don't i? but yeah haven't seen family or friends really in 2 years and i miss them both a lot and with the new job who knows i might even be able to start and keep a relationship going. ah well i am really tired and will be ending this here, maybe i'll post another one tomorrow to let ya know if i got in trouble or not at work HAHAHA! FUCK THEM.